rochy's love, hate and happiness

I always feel like I’m struggling to become someone else. Like I’m trying to find a new place, grab hold of a new life, a new personality. I guess it’s part of growing up, yet it’s also an attempt to reinvent myself. By becoming a different me, I could free myself of everything. I seriously believed I could escape myself- as long as I made the effort. But I always hit a dead end. No matter where I go, I still end up me. What’s missing never changes. The scenery may change, but I’m still the same old incomplete person. The same missing elements torture me with a hunger that I can never satisfy. I guess that lack itself is as close as I’ll come to define myself.

When he left, I guess the old me kinda just went with him. When someone makes that big of an impact on your life, how could you ever be the same? He made me really believe we could last forever, and now I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to believe in forever again. He took my trust and hope. He took my insecurities to depend on people, and to wait for nothing. But I guess that’s a good thing, right? It made me realize that I don’t need anyone, because the one person who swore he needed me showed me he didn’t. That positive girl with a big heart is gone now, and she’s never coming back.

I’m so vain!

gpoy monday!

Color it pink! (Taken with instagram)

my very own version of chicken ala king…

its father’s day today and i feel like celebrating this day by cooking… also im so sawa na sa usual dish they’re cooking (adobo, caldereta, menudo, fried chicken, etc)

inspired by chicken ala king of greenwhich except that i dont have an oven to baked it.. i decided to make my own version of this dish..

there are so many ways how to cook chicken ala king and i did search the internet to give me some idea on how to.. but i dont wanna really rely on the facts given there, i want to experiment and make it more unique based on my own taste..

here’s the ingredients and procedures i used..

ingredients:

•2 kilos chicken breast, deboned, skin removed, cut into cubes, cooked •1 can 284ml. of cream of mushroom •evaporated milk •chicken cubes •carrots and potatoes cut into cubes, fried •kernel corn •green peas •mushroom

procedures:

•on a pan sauteed onion, garlic and mushroom •pour some mushroom water and put chicken cubes, bring to boil. •with constant stirring slowly put the cream of mushroom and then continue to stir until thickens and dissolve. •pour milk and continue stirring •put dissolved flour with continue stirring to thicken the sauce. •after preferred taste achieved mixed the cook chicken, potato, carrots, corn and green peas and cooked for at least 5 minutes. •put some salt and pepper to taste.

and then you’re done..

im not really a cook.. i just love to cook sometimes, especially when im not lazy..lol…

as you can see, i dont use measurements. i just rely purely on my taste and asked someone to taste it for me.. as long as they say it tastes good as in really good.. im ok with that..:)

im planning to buy an oven to do some more cooking and perhaps baking also.. :)

so that’s it.. i just wanna share what i have done today.. :)

happy father’s day!

my phones (Taken with instagram)

lol!

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